Worship

Church was interesting today. Not really in a good way at first. Although I was frustrated with a few people, I kind of zoned out and was next to unresponsive to everyone except Erin, and then in 3rd, pastor Hurt. I didn't feel at all myself.

I felt like I was 1 of maybe... 10 people actually worshipping. Maybe it's wrong of me to even care who else is doing it but I couldn't help it. I miss the energy from the approaching thunder conference! Why can't every sunday, every wednesday be JUST AS EXCITING?? Really, it is. We sing the SAME stuff. Since we know God has not abandoned us... That makes us at fault doesn't it? Maybe we don't mean it as much. I don't really know... But I know I want to see enthusiastic worship everywhere. Not just singing. Like this sunday was also serve-sunday. I really didn't want to do it. I blame myself for not going though. I made excuses like, "I had work at 2 A.M. last night... Plus I'm kinda sore." How foolish am I? Alot, I think.

Now that I've completely lost my train of thought... Lol. I'm in a very good mood at the moment. I know why... But you don't =)